Long Time, No Type

The SICKNESS, has finally started to lift! Hallelujah! I can eat again and things are starting to be wonderful!
I am happy to say that there was a heartbeat at our ten week appointment! It was beating at 160 bpm! It was so exciting even my husband couldn't contain his glee! I didn't cry which surprised me but I also did not want the Doc to remove the doppler! It is the most amazing, wonderful, fantastic sound in all the world! Like a little stampede of horses in my uterus! I cannot wait to go back and hear it again!

Thanks for reading!

The Sickness

Well as I entered my 6th week of pregnancy I became so incredibly ill I thought I was dying! I had to go to the ER and get meds and fluids. Now after almost 2 weeks of meds. I am feeling much better, still puking but not as often. I hope this means I have a healthy baby in there! We go to hear the heartbeat and get a bunch of bloodwork done on Tuesday November 9th. I am anxiously awaiting this date. My worst fear is that we will not have a heart beat. I am told this is unlikely considering the horrible sickness I have been suffering. So sorry I haven't updated there just isn't much to report. I couldn't write about my fun vacation because I was so sick I had to miss it :(

M.I.A

I have been sooooo busy lately! We were gone all weekend spending time with our families! It was so hard to be around them with this giant secret in my tummy! I cannot wait until I hear this heartbeat so I can flap my gums!
This weekend started spending quality time with my grandma, then I came home and took a 3 hour nap! This exhaustion is killing me! After that I had housework to do!
Sunday we went to a football game with my Father-in-law and some friends! It was a lot of fun but an extremely long day!
Now I am bogged down with school work, housework and preparing for our mini Ozark vacation coming up next week!
I promise to blog next Tuesday after my appt, until then it is going to be scattered!
Thanks for reading :)

Catch up!

I took lots of pictures of Mr. Mraz from my spot a few feet from the stage! It was amazing but afterward I felt like crap! My back and stomach muscles have never hurt like that! My sister in law bought me an awesome t-shirt and discovered I was pregnant due to pictures of pregnancy tests on my camera! I'm so dumb! She promised not to tell so hopefully she doesn't because my mother-in-law will be devastated if she isn't the first to know! Oh Mother-in-laws! So fun!

The Dr. has confirmed that there is something in there! I had a pregnancy test, which was positive. I also had a pelvic exam, good times, which confirmed that my uterus is slightly enlarged! My next appt. is in two weeks where I believe they will just further confirm my pregnancy and I will speak to the woman in billing about everything our insurance does and does not cover! I am anxiously awaiting the 10 week appointment where I will hear the heart beat and see the little nugget!

This morning I woke up sick and I actually puked! I was kind of excited about it and caught myself hoping it happens again! I never thought I would see the day I wished to vomit! Oh boy!

Today

I am feeling better. I may not have morning sickness yet but I have plenty of other symptoms. I feel that this pregnancy will stick around.  If it doesn't I will get through it and try again. At least we know I can get pregnant! My husband and I are just talking like it's going to happen. We are planning when to tell people and how we want to handle the delivery room and visitors. I'm trying to stay positive! I'm not going to lie I have taken 3 pregnancy tests...but I consider this progress ;)

I have my first prenatal appointment tomorrow. I hope it goes well! Afterward i am going to see Jason Mraz with my sister-in-law! We LOVE him! So hopefully tomorrow will be an excellent day! I will be back Thursday with reports!!!!

Afraid....

I'm so afraid that I am going to lose this baby. It is driving me nuts. I know I have to relax but it is hard!
I am worried about everything:
I have one cup of tea a day, which was ok'd but as soon as I found out I stopped drinking it.
I live in an 80 something year old home, so now I have to buy a water test kit because I'm worried we have lead in our water.
I had to tell my chemistry professor that I was pregnant because I was afraid that I would touch something that could hurt the baby.
I feel like everything in the world is out to get the baby and make me crumble like before.
I just want to know that everything is okay, that the baby is growing appropriately, that my hormones are at appropriate levels to keep the pregnancy. I wish I didn't worry so much that would be better for the baby but I cannot help it. I have loved this little peanut since before it was even conceived!

I have been reading everything and I mean everything online. I am really confused about what week I am in. Some sites say I'm 4 weeks, some sites say I'm 3 weeks. If I'm 4 weeks then they can do an ultrasound at the doctor next week and we might be able to see the heart forming but definitely the neural tube!

I'm a mess, I'm working on it.

Soooo

I have been feeling like I was going to start my period for the last few days. So this morning I decided that if I didn't take a test to see what was going on with me, it may delay my period. So before I got into the shower this morning I took a pregnancy test. Now I fully expected this test to be negative which is why I took it. I figured then I would relax and my period would start and I could start my next round of clomid!
BUT......
It was POSITIVE!!!!! OMG!

I really hope that this is for real. I'm worried it might be a chemical pregnancy or that I will miscarry! I have an appointment on Wednesday the 29th with my Dr.! I just really hope that everything is looking good and that I have a baby in June!

Suz, I think your dance worked ;)

Week-end

This weekend I did not do any sanding or painting! I'm so lazy about those things! I want them done, but I don't want to do them. Ha. If only it would work that way!
Instead of sanding and painting, my husband and I went on a short bike ride, cleaned our house (windows included) and had my dad, his girlfriend and my paternal grandparents over for dinner! We had Eggplant Parmesan, salad, garlic bread and peach and cherry pie a la mode!
It was really delicious and it was nice to spend time with everyone!

Yesterday I got my Chemistry test back and Hallelujah, I got an 89%, so close to an A! I was shocked!  Now I just need to ace my Developmental Psych. test and I will be getting nice grades in all of my classes! I hope I can keep it up!

On the baby front, I am now 5 days away from being able to POAS! I'm really nervous and am pretty sure the result will be negative. I'm going to try and wait longer than the 5 days so I don't have to waste a stick! If it didn't work this time I have to take a higher dose of Clomid next cycle. I was sooooooo  moody with just the 50mg that I don't even want to see what the 100mg will do! Here's hoping my gut feeling is wrong and I am pregnant!

Adventure's in DIY

We had our bathroom remodeled thanks to a leaky pipe, now I have to paint it!
Normally this would not be a problem but the homeowner's before us left a hot mess!
I have to scrape and sand painted woodwork in order to get it to look semi-decent. Unfortunately, I have no idea what I am doing! This could be scary! My bathroom will look much better in the end but oh how I hate sanding!

I had my chemistry test on Wednesday, I think I did okay. It would have helped tremendously if the girl beside me could have saved the cracker's for after the test! Or chewed with her mouth closed! ICK!

I went out to dinner with my Father in-law, husband and grandmother in-law last night! We had the MOST delicious vegetarian meatball subs! Even my non vegetarian GIL loved them! Then we went to get some delicious turtle sundae's with chocolate ice cream! I'm still waddling after filling my stomach with all of that goodness!

Okay I guess I should stop playing on the internet and get to sanding the bathroom! I'm hoping to have it completely finished by Sunday afternoon because my Dad, his Girlfriend and my grandparents are coming over for dinner!

Chemistry

I should be studying for my chemistry test tomorrow, but my head started to throb. I do not want my head to explode so I'm taking an internet break!

I'm also watching I didn't know I was pregnant. Oh MY! Some of the people on this show. Today the girl said and I quote "We were having unprotected sex but I didn't think I could get pregnant" What?!?!
Also she was a nursing major so if she can do it I can definitely do it!

On the Clomid front, I have 12 days until I can take a pregnancy test and the wait is killing me! I wish that it could all be a surprise like the last time I became pregnant. I have far too much knowledge about days and times in order to let go of control and relax! Ugh!

Hope you all are having a fantastic day and enjoying some nice fallish weather!

A little Background

I realized I just jumped right into the ugly stuff and didn't share any of the wonderful things in my life or our backstory! So here it goes!

My husband and I met when I was in high school, we have been together for 10 years and married for 2  on October 11th! I am 27 he is 30! I am currently in school for a second Baccalaureate degree! Last time I went for early childhood education this time Nursing! I am excited about the career change and look forward to learning lots of new and interesting things!
We share our beautiful home with 4 pets all of whom are rescued!  We hope someday soon to add a baby into the already chaotic mix :)

Guru

Porkchop

Count Scratchula

Tom (He's Elusive)

We love animals and are vegetarians. We try to do right by the environment as well but we are still working on it! We love music and camping, we especially love enjoying music while camping! We also love our friends and have formed an amazing friend family without whom we would be lost!

We have been trying to conceive for 2 years. I became pregnant in November of 2008 only to miscarry shortly after Christmas the same year. We then learned that I have PCOS. We decided to try naturally for a little while longer but as you've read we recently decided to try Clomid. It helped me to ovulate so hopefully we can fertilize that egg! If not we do round 2 next month!

I love knitting and am attempting to learn crochet so if any of you have any tips please chime in! I also love running 5k's, watching movies and television, reading, spending time outdoors, cuddling with my pets, baking and shopping :) I am also trying to get into scrapbooking but I find it difficult!


Thanks for Reading! I hope to spend more time on here chronicling my days so keep reading :)

I made an egg!

I finished my clomid on the 5 of September.
I had an HSG on the 7th and it was very awkward and uncomfortable.
They informed me that everything was flowing well and I have a tight cervix.
Today I had a Follicle Study Ultrasound!
I made an Egg!!!! Hallelujah I'm going to ovulate!
Also I have a nice thick Uterine Lining! Perfect for an attaching baby! 
Now for the hard part!
Fertilizing that Egg!
Please keep us in your thoughts as we attempt to create a new life!

Infertility...

Infertility is the scariest word in the english language. All that I want is to become a mother but unlike most I can't just get pregnant. It is going to involve a lot of dr. appointments, medications, poking and prodding. I'm afraid that I will put my body through all of these unnatural things and still not end up with a beautiful baby. I start my first cycle of clomid soon and I'm afraid that I won't be one of the lucky percent that end up getting pregnant within the first three cycles. The doctor talked so positively because I was pregnant naturally once before but that ended in miscarriage. If I get pregnant and miscarry will I be able to go through that again? I have no idea. I'm scared to death.